Are you a risk taker? Risks come in all sizes and shapes. There are physical risks, of course, but also mental and emotional ones. Exploring ones intuitive abilities is a risky business. It means stepping out without a clearly defined safety net, with little more than the hope that one is right and it will all come together in the end.
I have been writing here about the need to trust oneself. The underbelly of that reality is the risk involved in doing just that. For some of us, who have been repeatedly told that we don’t know what we know, it can be a higher stress level than for others. For myself, it took a long time to figure out what was actually happening and why. Even now, I still go through periods of time when I struggle with whether or not to speak into certain situations, or to remain silent.
Yet, here I am, writing almost daily, putting it all out there for anyone to see and make judgments about. That is very risky business. And yes, I do wonder on occasion why I do it. Ask myself if its worth it, or even why I should continue. I do have, or have found, some answers. They work for me, but they might not do as well for anyone else.
The first answer is always the same: why not? Why not do it, no matter what the feeling level might be? I find deep satisfaction on my blogs and in the actual writing of them. Whether or not anyone else does, isn’t quite as important as that one piece of information.
But, I also believe that what I have to say is important and needs to be put out there for others who might have similar issues. I do not believe that I own a particular corner of the truth, there are lots of others who might say the same things and do it a whole lot better than I do. That is okay as well. Some of them might not get heard, whereas I might. And even if none of us gets heard, or read, there still remains that deep satisfaction of knowing I have done it, taken the risk, and survived.
There is another answer that has nothing to do with anyone else other than me. When I pick a topic and then follow it wherever it leads me, I often, quite frequently in fact, find the answers to my own questions. That in turn, of course, makes for a great many connective links stored in my own memory and an acknowledgement of my own intuitive skills. And that too is deeply satisfying.
I follow the signs and symbols within my own existence. For me that means I must continue to write because that is the one place I most frequently find them. It doesn’t mean there are not others. There are, some in very surprising places and people. As far as I am concerned, the acknowledgement of that reality is the most important aspect.
Each time I acknowledge that I have seen or heard the signs, I signal to my intuition that I am listening, ready to hear and to see whatever is pointed out to me. And that in turn, encourages those skills and abilities to come forward and make themselves known. It is, in a way, very much like dealing with an abuse victim.
The first and most important priority when dealing with a victim is to ensure that they are safe. As a former victim, I didn’t feel safe until I knew that I had been heard. That my thoughts and feelings were understood and taken into account. Most of us have a tendency to ignore or dismiss the intuitive signals we encounter. That is, and can be seen, as an abuse of our own mental capacities. It takes time to earn back the trust that ignorance and dismissal create.
I have already discussed the need to earn that trust. We do that each time we acknowledge one of those moments of clarity, rather than dismissing it as coincidence, or ignoring it altogether. Acknowledging it also means acting on the information. And that is where the risk comes in. Will others understand, hear it, see it, or tell us we are full of beans? Will we choose to listen to them, or accept their version of what we should know?
Which brings us to the issue of discernment: knowing when to speak, act, or do whatever needs to be done, versus the knowledge that it might be best to refrain in this particular moment. That also is a skill that needs to be used, but won’t be unless it is put into practice frequently. It is learned through trial and error like most things are. I did say this is hard work, but it will never get done unless we choose to begin.
The choosing is always up to the individual. I choose to promote the development of intuitive abilities because it has been an incredibly important aspect of my existence. And each time I do that, I run the risk of not being heard, or finding out that I don’t know what I think I know. Even so, all of that is worth it when some individual, including myself, stops and says, “Now that makes sense and I need to remember it.”
Where do you most often encounter those moments of clarity that bring a bit of sense to your world? Do you go there often, or even regularly? Or do you avoid that situation or circumstance? Do you know what your truth is, or would you prefer that others play that role for you, and if you do that, who are those others and how much do you trust the knowledge they impart? Are you even interested in knowing that information?